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I would never regain any memories of this seizure, or the ones to come. This moment, my first serious blackout, marked the line between sanity and insanity. Though I would have moments of lucidity over the coming weeks, I would never again be the same person. This was the start of the dark period of my illness, as I began an existence in purgatory between the real world and a cloudy, fictitious realm made up of hallucinations and paranoia. From this point on, I would increasingly be forced to rely on outside sources to piece together this “lost time.”
As I later learned, this seizure was merely the most dramatic and recognizable of a series of seizures I’d been experiencing for days already. Everything that had been happening to me in recent weeks was part of a larger, fiercer battle taking place at the most basic level inside my brain.
Сюзанна Кэхалан по крупицам извлекала из памяти события, случившиеся с ней во время болезни, брала интервью у лечивших ее врачей, родных и близких людей. Прочитала тысячу страниц медицинских отчетов, просмотрела несколько сотен обрывков видеозаписей из своей палаты… и все для того, чтобы ВСПОМНИТЬ, как она однажды сошла с ума…